Miserable most of the time

25 08 2009

Dear Someone Who Will Listen,

I have a lot of long stories, but other than that…

 When I need to breathe I either write, hurt myself (like, if I have a cut, then I’ll rip it or bother it till it’s bleeding), or I cry!

I don’t really like crying all the time, so I usually try to write what I’m feeling and why and what I want to do. But it usually doesn’t work because I take it out on someone else by saying something mean. I don’t like that either.

So I usually hurt myself or stalk off to be alone!

It’s hard to breathe like that in school, though, so I usually hurt myself with my hand and I’m fine most of the time!

I don’t think it’s as big as most people’s problem, but when I confront myself about how hard I am on myself and how mean and hurt I can be, I want to cry or scream. Anything to get it out! Writing doesn’t seem to work anymore and if I read it then my mind wonders to why I was mad!

It’s crazy, and I hate myself most of the time for not being pretty enough or skinny,  but I’m working on it!

                                                                Sincerely

                                                                    Miserable most of the time








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